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gahh God I am feeling really really rotten right now. I am just an unconsiderate bleep. Ok Im sure you are a bit confused, as I am also. It was weird. Earlier tonight I went to the boardwalk with Timmy and Caroline and my little cousin Jessie (caroline's age) to take them to minigolf and the arcade. There was this one guy there and i was talking to him a bit, im not sure how exactly it started but we didnt talk a lot anyways. Well he was basically asking where i was from... i said media and he asked if i was from nativity, which i was. He also said he knew someone from the track team a year younger than me. (He is gonna be a freshman and he didnt believe me when i said i was gonna be a sophomore)Anyways he seemed pretty nice and he kinda said something like we should hang out sometime, i dont know many ppl down here. He had a friend with him there tho... i kinda thought it was appropriate at the time and i said yeah. So then he went on to suggest Monday at 2 on Landis and 75th, and i kinda agreed. I am so evil i feel like a rotten person. I mean it was weird i dont even know the guy, i was kinda not even sure if i was gonna go when i said ok... i mean i dont get it, why would anyone wanna hang out with me? And if i did go i would feel really stupid and not know what to say... i mean i didnt even know who was gonna be there... they could be like druggies or sumthing or they could bring a ton of people i didnt know. Plus it wouldve made me feel better if at least Alicia was still down the shore, this was something she could help with. Or even if i just had someone else i knew to come with me, instead of me just walking to a random corner to meet someone i didnt even know... And so of course i felt really weird and then i didnt wanna go of course cuz i mean he probably was just doin a dare cuz a friend told him to... who can go find the ugliest girl and tell them to meet u someplace and then not show up. Now of course I feel kinda like that on the other end. I am currently in Media. So now Im gonna stand him up and i feel absolutely terrible cause thats just not something you do. I just cant believe myself. I was torn over whether to stay down the shore cuz i couldve til tuesday with my mom or i could come home tonight with my dad... and i guess it made me feel better pretending i hadta go home tonight to myself so i wouldnt haveta decide whether or not to go, id just haveta leave now, like it or not. Of course its never any good lying to urself as anyone knows. I talked to Emma about it, she stressed that i didnt even know the person and if i went home tonight i would able to get on the comp and such and talk to her. Its too bad Tori was still at camp, I think she might be dissapointed in me for sinking so low, but i wish i had her thought on the matter... Anyways i am being a moody annoying freak right now slap me and yell at me for getting this way, or say something to make me feel better if u are the kind sensitive type or whatnot. I dunno im tired and weirdish and whatnot.
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